Last week I had some cramping on Friday, so I called the doctor's office and the nurse said come in right away....given our history they don't mess around. So we headed in and the office was packed! Apparently one of the doctor's had an emergency and the others were picking up the slack for him. Well after 2 VERY long hours in the waiting room they took us back to the ultra sound room. As soon as the screen came up there was no doubt that our little stinker was just fine. He/she was kicking away.

Michael was so cute to watch. He wasn't at the ultra sound with Kailye, or the one in the spring where I saw our little one move. It was fun to see him so excited. The doctor printed off some cute pictures of the babies profile and a full body picture. I'll have to ask Steph to scan them so I can put them up. I was so excited for the profile picture...no visor!...like Michael's. Although I guess that still could change in the next few months. Here's hoping.

Well I better to get back to work. Weird they expect me to make money while I'm here. Peace.

Oh wait one more thing. I have not gained a pound with this pregnancy. Woohoo...I'm hoping I can go a few more months with out gaining weight. I weigh the same now as I did when i delivered kailye so I know my body has got plenty to go around.

Another Day.

It seems weird to me to think that we are a third of the way done. Although if you have seen me in the past few days you would guess more like half way done. My tummy is ridiculous. It's like my body just said..."ha, 4Th pregnancy, I know what to do...here you go, POP" It's funny when people ask how far along I am. I just love seeing their faces when I say 14 weeks. They are funny.

We are past what our doctor called the "scary faze" for us. LOL...he doesn't know. We are always in the scary faze. We'll see. We found out on Christmas that Michael's sister who is a month a head of us is having a girl. I kind of hope that we have a girl too because than Jayci, Aubri (Nat's unborn), and our girl, Kapri, will be close together. Michael says he wants a boy but every chance he gets he takes Jayci. He melts with her, the same way he did with Kk when she was a baby. He loves that kid.

I am a little Worried about kailye on that side of the family because there is a 4 year gap between cousins. I can just imagine her at 16 going to a family function and being super annoyed by her two 12 year old cousins and little 12 year old sibling. I told Michael last night that if we had the resources to do it I would adopt a little 2 year old. I always wanted to adopt anyway but that would fill in the gap between our kids as well. We'll see how things go in the next year...I guess you never know what God has in store for you.

We already know names either way so I feel kind of more excited that way. If it's a girl she will be Kapri Elizabeth Griffee. And for a boy Kingston Zenniff Griffee. I'm getting excited even though I try not to let myself too much...sad I know but I know there are several of you who understand why.

I'll have Michael take a belly picture later so I can post it. It's pretty funny.

14 weeks and still counting...

Yesterday was a fun day for us. Well I guess I should just say me. I felt our little one move. I know it's really early but I felt Kailye move this early too. And I know the difference between a gas bubble and a baby...I know it's been a while but this isn't my first time. It was good to have a little more reassurance. Michael and I are such sceptics about pregnancy now, even when we go in for check up we expect the worse. I know it's sad but can you blame us? Well I need to make some money before I leave work in a few minutes so I'll write more later. Bye.

Update

We had another doctors appointment today. I was kind of sad we didn't get to see the baby today but we did hear its cute little heart beat. It was a quick appointment so we didn't have much time to really sit and listen. I was very nervous for a minute because it took a minute for him to find the heart beat. But he found it.

Michael and I are such skeptics on being pregnant now because of our past experiences. But our little one had a heart rate at 142. Woohoo. Well I have to get back to work so I'll write more later.

Tomorrow.

We have another doctor's appointment tomorrow. I am excited to see our little peanut and hear it's heart beat tomorrow. I have been little nervous about it because I haven't been feeling very sick the past few days and I don't have some of the pregnancy symptoms I usually do. But I don't know if that is normally how it goes because with Kailye I was sick the full 9 months. I've heard it usually calms down after 12 weeks so I'm hoping that is what it is. I guess we'll see tomorrow. I think Michael is glad I'm not so sick anymore so that things actually get done a little quicker around our house. Our room is finally coming together and clothes are starting to be put away....I know 3 months and they are still everywhere. and the garage is getting a little less full everyday. Well I better get back to work. Bye.

Another day.

I have been so stressed out lately that I am a bit worried about our little peanut. But then this morning when I got up I tuned a little funny and something hit me square in the bladder. I'm thinking we are alright. After the few bad pregnancies we've had everyday makes me more nervous. We have a doctor's appointment next week and I am so excited to see our peanut again. A little part of me is still always sceptical. But I know our little one is growing because one side of my belly is noticeably bigger than the other. I'll post a picture later...I think it's funny. Well I have to head down to work for a while so I'll try and post that picture later. Love you all bye.

So I was not aware that so many of you checked this blog considering I had only told a few people about it. Well today has not been a very good day. And I really don't feel like blogging about it so I think this is it for today. Bye.

Almost there..

We are so close to being 90% more likely to keep our little one. We will be at 12 weeks in just a few days. I am so excited. I have felt like absolute crap for the past 10 weeks so I am MORE than ready to be done with this part. Although we'll see. With baby number one all this never went away until she came out.

I told Michael I know why I don't get post pardom depression (baby blues) It's because I'm so miserable the whole time I'm pregnant that there is no way I am letting anything else keep me weighted down for any more than 9 months. I guess it's a good exchange. I would much rather be happy with my new baby than feel frustrated and overwhelmed.

Well our next appointment is next week so I'll keep you updated. you know all 3 of you who look at this blog.

WooHoo!

We made it longer then previous pregnancies. We had a car accident on Tuesday night that scarred us. We headed to the doctor yesterday though and saw our little one kicking and waving away. It's so weird to see that and at the same time ironic. We saw our little one moving around with the pregnancy we had in the spring but so far so good with this one. yay! Well I have to head into the doctor for the massive head ache I've heaf since Tuesday from slamming my head into the head rest. Better get going.

Love you all.

Here we go.

So I have been having some spotting over the past week which for me usually means we're through. So Michael and I braced our selves accordingly and headed to the doctor last Thursday to do another ultra-sound. Well we have a heart beat. After a few more days of spotting the doctor said he wanted the blood work done. Well we got the results back from those last night and all is well. The doctor said we need to come in once a week for the next 6 to 7 weeks to do ultra-sounds but hopefully we are okay. So we are headed in again tomorrow. Love you all. Bye.

Update

We went to the doctor on Monday night and he said he couldn't see anything and to come back in on Friday. So we went in today and there has been some progress. Still no heart beat but he says it looks pretty normal. He is figuring we are just barely at 6 weeks. We told him the only thing that was concerning to us is that with our pregnancy in the spring we saw a heart beat at 5 1/2 weeks, an obvious heart beat. But he says it looks normal to him. He wants us back in a few weeks, at which point we will be at nearly 9 weeks and he said you should have no problem seeing a heart beat at that point. He asked if we wanted to have blood work done but I told him we don't want to pay for it. If we are going to miscarry no blood work is going to change that. He seemed to sense our relaxed manner toward the pregnancy and he knew we know the risks. When he asked if we were excited we told him we'll let you know after we see a heart beat until then, whatever happens happens. So I guess now we wait. The "good" thing is I have been feeling like crap all week. I know weird but with my other pregnancies as soon as I stopped feeling that way is when we lost them. I'll keep you posted...ha ha..posted.

I'm not going to go into this too much but we had to go to the doctor last night because I was having issues yesterday. He says he doesn't think we are as far along as we thought. But I think we lost another baby. We should be about 5 or 6 weeks, but the ultrasound they did last night didn't look like that. Our ultrasound in April was at 5 weeks and we could see a strong heart beat. This one should be about the same and no heart beat. We rescheduled our doctors appointment for Friday so we'll see.

6 weeks..I think?

I think I am 6 weeks along. If I'm not this picture is a little scary. I haven't gained any weight yet...WOOOHOOO! But my weight I already had has definitely shifted. A few people have noticed I am pregnant...how could you not?..and when they find out I'm only 6 weeks the first thing they say is "is it twins?" Oh gosh...I hope not. That would be tough. I think my body is just thinking...huh 4Th pregnancy I know what to do.

Our first doctor's appointment is on Tuesday, so we will see what the doctor says. For some reason I still feel like it's not real and the doctor is going to call me crazy. Weird I know.

So on the clutzness!!!

I am usually a little klutz as Bobbie so lovingly told me. However when I'm pregnant it is ridiculous. Let me give you a few examples. I am all of the sudden a retard on a key board. yes nothing is spelled right..it has all the right letters just in the wrong order. It's like one hand is faster than the other...seriously. So sad...thank goodness for spell check.

yesterday I was taking pictures of Kailye climbing a tree and I was dropping the camera. It was like something out of a cartoon, I just bounced it around between my hand before I could finally get a grip on it..sheesh. I'm sure the cars that drove by thought it was funny.

When I got out of a friends car today I smacked my head on her door even though a half a second earlier I watched a friend do the same thing. I also dropped a bag with Cafe Rio take out in it as soon as I got out of the car yesterday. Not just my take out but 3 other peoples. Not because it slipped out of my hand but it's like my hand involuntarily opened.

Another example, the other night I was picking up the computer to take it over to the couch and I had it at about eye level, well I then decided to turn my head..quickly...I slammed my head directly into the top of my computer, while I was holding it. Oh wait it gets better.

So tonight I picked up the computer to go sit at the couch and I slammed it into my nose. Not because I slipped or was dropping it. Apparently just because my brain was saying to my hand "hey watch this". Oh man. I hope I don't break something...not like computer or camera but more like my face. There are so many more but I think I've said enough.

UG!!

I have been feeling pretty good. Not too tired..I mean tired but not too bad. So I haven't had any huge cravings except for Burger King fries..I know gross. Today I ate lunch and had a yummy salad I love and about 5 minutes later I ran to the bathroom. Oh man, I was so sad. I really like...scratch that..likeed that salad. I was a little nervous that this pregnancy was in my head because I hadn't been that sick or tired...plus my boobs don't hurt..I know TMI. I have however dropped everything I've touched which is how I figured out I was pregnant. I'm a huge cluts when I 'm pregnant...Really it's bad. With Kailye at 8 1/2 months pregnant I fell over. Ask Steph about it. It was hilarious, I'm sure. Well I have to get back to work.

First post.

We haven't told anyone we are pregnant yet. And with very good reason. We lost our last baby at 5 weeks and the one before that at 12 weeks. With that one we had seen our little babies strong heart beat and saw it bouncing around. It was the most horrific experience I've ever had to deal with. Something you wouldn't fully understand unless you've gone through it your self. It is soooo hard to see your little baby moving one day and told it didn't make it the next. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Anyway, enough of that. We have our first doctor's appointment next week but I wanted to start to document our pregnancy so I could look back later. Here is the first belly picture also. This is 5 weeks ....I think.