This entire pregnancy has felt surreal.
It took me a few weeks to be okay with being pregnant again which was okay. Then I was in school for 3 1/2 months there in the middle. And now we area almost done and it still doesn't feel like we will be bringing home a new little guy to our home in a few weeks. This scares me a little since every other child I've had it has felt very real and I have been very attached long before the baby is born, but this one feels different.
I have had that gut wrenching feeling the entire pregnancy that something is going to go wrong. I know it sound ridiculous but I had a similar feeling with Gabriel the night before he was born and then we ended up with an emergency c-section. So I've learned to trust those feelings. I think that is partly the reason why I have not connected with this child the same way I did with my other children. I have been nervous to get to close. Hopefully all goes well and in 4 weeks we have a new little man living at our house and getting far too much "love and attention" from his older siblings. But in the back of my head I can't get out that we might not.
It took me a few weeks to be okay with being pregnant again which was okay. Then I was in school for 3 1/2 months there in the middle. And now we area almost done and it still doesn't feel like we will be bringing home a new little guy to our home in a few weeks. This scares me a little since every other child I've had it has felt very real and I have been very attached long before the baby is born, but this one feels different.
I have had that gut wrenching feeling the entire pregnancy that something is going to go wrong. I know it sound ridiculous but I had a similar feeling with Gabriel the night before he was born and then we ended up with an emergency c-section. So I've learned to trust those feelings. I think that is partly the reason why I have not connected with this child the same way I did with my other children. I have been nervous to get to close. Hopefully all goes well and in 4 weeks we have a new little man living at our house and getting far too much "love and attention" from his older siblings. But in the back of my head I can't get out that we might not.
